Phantom's Bane

Want and need

2008-06-09T10:17:00.003+02:00

I've had this discussion with some friends previously and was wondering if anybody shares the same views as us.........

Is there a difference between want and need?

If there is a difference then what is it?

Is it possible to want AND need the same thing?

Keep me posted ;)

I AM MO!

2008-05-30T15:14:00.003+02:00

Where you see exhaustion I see contentment.....
Where you believe incoherent thought I hear resounding inspiration.....
Where you decide life recedes I foresee longevity......
Where you inspire to motivate I desire to be as I am.....

My world is in a never-ending spiral, teetering on sanity's edge but gleaming the cube like never before.........
It's metamorphosis from aimless to focused happened in no orderly fashion......
All concepts of free time have been stripped for the greater good......
I feel like Robin Hood and the Sheriff of Nottingham is my woe's......
I'm denied my right to elevation where your word's stoke fury in escalation.......

I AM MO!Lest you forget it...........

2008-04-23T17:12:00.002+02:00

If eyes could talk, mine would sob
A tale of my heart which a thief did rob

On land she became my partner in crime
Of all pleasures did we discover as a pair
My fault was that i never shared
What my mind hath planned
So now i'm bare

If Sylvia withheld her mind from the oven
We know not what mischief her future would have woven
Do the pressures of life not compress our minds so?

Hate me not nor love me ever
Only time shall show
This rhyme's endeavour
I beg i plead all who read
Like V who's vendetta burned fury from pain
Let go of before and tackle the wrongs that remain

Allow for all costs,write off what you can
Off into the sunset my darling we shall walk hand in hand

Profound?

2008-04-21T16:40:00.002+02:00

Ever caught yourself watching a movie and wishing you could just jump into the screen and take over the role of the hero/heroine?I wonder wat that says about me.....

Ever seen an old couple walk hand in hand in the street and hope to be as lucky as them?To see as many years as they did?

Am i disturbed mentally or is this what makes me me?We all have different sides to us but are we in balance like two sides of a coin,ying and yang?Can any of us honestly say i'm in a stage in my life where i'v got things in order.......

This is all off the cuff so i beg that nobody consider this my present state of mind.........

Let the stars show me the way

2008-04-16T11:24:00.002+02:00

Load shedding,its an inevitability that irks me even when the lights are on.We supposedly clawed through the dark ages with sword and stone only to end up in a technological age where life is symmetrically kept in check by one glorious yet tiny processing unit aka the micro-chip.Created by man (or aliens according to Optimus Prime) amidst tumultuous applause,it revolutionised lifestyle and in itself became a doorway for greater heights to be reached.All that being said,it becomes quite immaterial at the absence of electricity which we have Eskom to thank for.Last night i sat in darkness,a proverbial man on fire at the edge of sanity.Graced with just a blanket of stars as my companion i contemplated starting up a bonfire just to spark up the night and it dawned on me......................

THE JAMAICA EFFECT

2008-03-14T09:15:00.002+02:00

I guess we all have to grow up some time or another but do we really have to give up being young at heart?In all my experiences i'v never once considered losin the kid within me but i do feel that kid's flame of conviction flicker now n then.

I'v recently started out the rest of my life with a business venture and so far it goes pretty well thou some pressures are startin to breach the not so problem free surface.Those that know me will understand that my sunny disposition always used to outshine whatever i came across therefore i'm turnin my sails to the wind and going at my obstacles head on.

People i am now doin tire's and rims and have my own fitment centre in Shallcross called Jamaica Motorsport.We do anythin from 13" to 24" and i have to say its a challenging market.
I'm not gonna try to promote myself more here cos i could go on and on bout my line of work......(sigh) its official..........I'M WORKING!!!!!!!Hehehehe sorry,had to get that outa my system.

As herbal as my business sounds i hope to see or speak to u guys with whom i'v lost contact on a more frequent basis via my lovely ADSL which took me ages to get.I felt like Neo when he was plugged in but now.....I'm the one thats doin the plugging,pardon the lame puncture repair humour hee hee....

So much to say,so little vocab left in me.Seems words fail me now or maybe its just too early in the morning for me but i better get back to work.Hope atleast one person reads this post cos i deserted my blog for quite a while......my bad.....laters i'm outy

To the one that got away-Cheers!!

2007-04-05T13:12:00.000+02:00

Ever drove during mid afternoon, lovely warm sunshine and every person is smiling at the way their day is going....I felt a semi-nirvana, calm and clear, music was blaring and it fell on my deaf ears and just when my insight into myself seemed on a precarious edge between break-through and seeing the harsh truth of myself as a whole, something caught my attention as if to say HEY!!WAKE THE F### UP!!!! She's looking at me, a breeze billowing her gorgeous pin straight hair, her smile so seductive and inviting it intoxicates and infects my faculty to think bout anything else. My point of this post is this...... is there anybody out there who's seen a girl once and in that moment infatuated themselves with that portrait of beauty? Has anybody out there ever drove past a girl and never lost admiration for the way that person carries themself? Call me a hopeless romantic but i cant help but wonder was she the one? Ever felt a tide of emotion beat on your throat threatening to be released like a pent up animal, WILD and PRIMAL in nature but filled with warmth.....Yes i do feel where many think i'm cold and heartless but anyway i saw this gem standing there but it was like so surreal and suddenly i get this feeling that a barrage of questions is gonna assault me once you guys read this, so lets clear some shyt up. No i couldn't stop, was on working time, i am a hopeless romantic and by no means AT ALL are you allowed to tease me about this and i am dead serious bout that......R n Zoe if your'l even dare be sarcastic i'l SCREAM!!!!! MWAH!!!! Byeeeeeeeee

Sitting in the solitude of my four walls at 2 am

2007-03-19T10:04:00.000+02:00

Ever wondered why you look and feel suspicious in your own room? A jailhouse of miserable dilemmas. I sit here doing small things i never do normally and wonder if my life ends now do all these things count for me in the hereafter? I can't imagine why this question nags me constantly but conscious or not the appeal to be good to life as life has been good to you overpowers with unbearable paranoia. It pounds your senses to the point where the faculty to perform simple tasks becomes obsolete. It gnaws at something within, something that calls to the soul, something that you acquired freely with the guarantee of losing it The one chance that should your tasks be performed for the happiness of HIM, then your labour will NEVER go unnoticed

If I Hide Will The World Still Be there

2007-03-12T13:59:00.000+02:00

Decades pass by and earth still rotates through the passage of time.It makes me wonder whether what we do in everyday life has an effect, if any, on the way the world spins, on the way the world works, on the way people go about everyday business. I still cant get the hang of speaking what i think and yet I've just done so in this sentence. I find it obscene that most people have an opinion or rather a vocal capacity to engage conversation and air out there likes and dislikes without premonition of the recipients view on the manner in which there ideologies are transferred. Fill a sentence with enough social jargon and anything can come across as intellectually sound. So now i find myself lost in a world where people are interested in what i have to say and yet i cannot bring myself to form coherent speech or thought but in solace it corrupts my mind. It pains me that my friends can be candid with each other with no fear of reprimand or rejection and be unique on demand without having to check themselves for fault or lack of character. Five years ago my lingo, appearance and every fibre of me was a hundred percent totally ME but today i get this cold void in me saying I've leeched off character traits of others and my originality has been tarnished to a sad and lonely existence whereby i look and listen but soon start denying my input cos i start second guessing myself on whether what i say has a bearing on others or if it falls on deaf ears.....The UDW soccer tournament gauged a huge decrease on my social skills and made me realise that when it comes to talking to someone who you've shared alot with, can you show the same love to a person without society conversating on you?? Yesterday i practiced foosball at a guys house and he happens to play for South Africa. After the session i spoke the niceties of goodbye and take care and started walking to my car just after sunset. I looked up the stairs i was walking on and this huge dog was coming down toward me. Funny how in the face of adversity human and animal are so alike, the dog started sprinting toward me and barked baring its fangs and i went cold. Not cold like frozen to the spot but cold like within my depths i felt fear, genuine and unrelenting. It gripped me and my heartbeat automatically began an erratic symphony. HE alone knows what made me call out HEY! and lo and behold it started whimpering in shyness at my outcry. With its tail between its legs it ran away and i walked to the top of the stairs, the proverbial Rocky, champion of canines i wonder? But my point is that the fear i experienced exhilirated me afterward and adrenaline coursed my veins and i felt ALIVE!!!! I drove aimlessly around Durbs just feeling confidence grip me and empower me. I felt like i wanted to hike up signal hill just to watch the sunset (you know it was you that gave me the desire to see it again)....Oh well i have a mountain of work to attend so aurevoir monami's and MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU

Phoenix-when i got some free time

2007-03-09T11:15:00.000+02:00

Life yields many great pleasures and so many feelings riddled with emotion unabounded take control of our goals.tell me a secret you never told anybody and i'l guard it with my life,treasured and kept in an archive.Smile the whole day and somebody asks if you had your kelloggs that morning.Why is it that the world always has the urgency to know exactly whats going on in your life?Query them when they ask and the extremely insufferable reply you get is :"Just cos i wanna know........Do i need any other reason?"Left with a feeling of defeat you cant help but remember how simple things in life can get you down....Anyway,turn over a new leaf and see the other side is not as rosy as you would believe it to be.People at the end are born with faults,not always by there choice but anyways this girl at work by the name of Anastasia just won't let me type out my thoughts now so i gtg hehe laters an all an all

Is this what life feels like?

2007-03-06T14:38:00.000+02:00

Phantom, many know me, most shy away. Tell me, if the world had to be forced into the position where everybody had to hold a conversation with a total stranger, how many would succeed in tickling the interests of the person they're speaking to? Do you think you have the patience to listen to a total stranger tell you his story? How would you go about beginning that conversation or rather would you care about how you start?Anyway after getting the mindf##k of your life from reading the stupid innermost eccentricities of my mind, i think most people like to believe that they are always in control of what they see or hear but what most people don't realise is messages interpreted by themselves can be shaped and moulded to a certain central point because those that create the message mean for you to see it that way.....Dunno if this is what blog life is about but its peaked my interest so farewell and good morrow.........live long and prosper would'v sounded better but hey taxes and death-go figure